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treesha. i am offically addicted to diet coke annnd i am really excited for spring break even though i'm not really going anywhere but home. i want to drive around and listen to music with trisha, mary, jordan, claire, and an occational riley..then go to sheetz and get a big diet coke from sheetz with good ice! then we can come home and eat my mom's leftover spagetti, watch the office or friends, and pass out in my bed, or if we are lucky, my moms bed. Uhhh, except..so my mom called me today and said elizabeth called her, so she went by to see her. She said she is still not doing well, which duhh, but she wants me to come by. she wants to give me something of brittany's. i want to go but its so effing hard to go over there. its so dark and sad, literally though. As soon as i step in that house i'll probably cry. you know how there are those people who can just make you cry(like mindy and jane when they talk really serious at), well she is like that too, except times a million. its her eyes i think that do it..ahh oh well. i want to go and i need to, its just gonna be hard. also i have been having dream about brittany. it sorta freaks me out but i feel like i sorta like it too. it sounds weird but i feel like i can still talk to her through my dreams. like the things i wish i could tell her, i will tell her in my dreams in our conversations. i'm not really sure what i think of it yet..but i miss her.

Though i know i'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know i'll often stop and think about them
In my life i love you more
In my life i love you more